A little of both…but i think too much

Do you spend more time thinking about the future or the past? Why?

Sometimes, it is hard to think too much about the future because of fear.

Like everyone, I have dreams, dreams about the future, and what can be possible.

But thinking too much of the future sends a shiver of dread and excitement up and down my spine because I have no control over what I can not see.

Having no control is scary because things can happen without me being at the helm and without a helmet.

Yet it can be exciting because there are new and wonderful adventures to explore.

Dont get me wrong you need to make plans and it is great to make plans and modify them as time goes by with what works and what doesn’t work, but jumping ahead all the time makes me feel out of body. I need to live in the present and work on this moment in order to succeed and fulfill my future.


Likewise, I dwell on the past in order to improve my present and to learn what is the best way to my future.

All things aside, the present is what I have, so I need to enjoy it and try not to mess it up for the future.

The best way for me to do that is to have a good balance by giving  thanks in the  present for all that is past and to trust for all that is to come. 

Everything is about trust.

Same as my Mother

What colleges have you attended?

When we first immigrated to this country, of course, Mom and Dad had to find work. They had money, but that runs out if not replenished. Having a large family consisting of young children was stressful, but my parents hit the ground running.

One of the first things that Mom did was to go back to school. She went to a local college to get her papers in office administration.

Years later, after graduating from university, I wanted something practical, so I went to the local college, not knowing Mom graduated from there. Unlike Mom, I went into healthcare. 

It was worth it.

Playtime? Not!

Do you play in your daily life? What says “playtime” to you?

Playtime is me relaxing and being lazy.

Jumping up and down, moving around just makes me sweaty.

No, thank you.

Relax, baby.

Finding Time

What are your biggest challenges?

I am busy, but like most people, I have been gifted with twenty-four  hours per day. Still, I have no time or so, I think.

This year, I hope to be mindful of my goals and redeem my time.

Getting my priorities straight, hopefully, will also mean getting more sleep. 

Loyalty and Faithfulness

What is something others do that sparks your admiration?

I have several sisters, but one stands out with regard to loyalty.

If she makes a promise, she will burn down the world to fulfill that promise. She will do whatever she can to help, to encourage and to fight for you. She is loyal to a fault.

I admire that in her because I can trust her. Trust means everything to me. A relationship can not move forward without trust. I hate having to second-guess people and situations. When I can put my trust in someone, I know they will be true to form.

Unfortunately, because of this quality, she is used a lot by both family and friends and never given her true rewards.

I see her.

And I am happy and proud to call her my loyal sister.

October is beautiful

What’s your favorite month of the year? Why?

I live in a country where the seasons change the prospect. Spring is a renewal of life. Summer has great energy and heat. Winter is cold and harsh with just the right hint of the promise of spring.

Then there is fall; cozy and pretty with a chill that nips at your feet as you move forward.

I love the month of October with all the changing colours of the leaves and the weather turning colder with every passing day. The cozy feeling as you pull on a thick sweater to ward off the bite of cold air.

I love to taking pictures in the early morning of the frost that clings to the ground while the sun rises slowly to brighten the day.

I know with fall time is moving into winter and the plants are dying, but I do not think about death; I think about sleep and the promise of a new day when spring breaks through with all its hope and vibrance. 

When I had to be responsible

When was the first time you really felt like a grown up (if ever)?

Being an adult can be overrated because, as an adult, you need to be responsible.  You have to work to live and live to work. You have to take care of other things and people not just yourself. This could mean financially, physically, and  emotionally.

As a kid, the world revolves around you. You are the center of the universe. Cool. There are no worries.

I try not to be an adult with my limitations, but I sometimes see the world as a kid without filters or limits. Life is what you make of it.

I became an adult, I think, when I started working in my present profession. I deal with the elderly and mortality is a second word.

I wish that every day i can be a kid  again.

Exercise

What’s a topic or issue about which you’ve changed your mind?

I felt pressured to exercise hard all the time. Then my schedule got jammed up, and I had little time to devote to this craft. The harder I worked out, the more I hated working out, and the more I felt guilty about skipping my workouts.

Covid hit, and I started working and looking at exercise as movement not only in a gym but to stay active at all times. Of course, we all know that but do we really know it, really.

I walked almost every day and did some workouts in the basement. The routine was great. Then, I had to go back to work with my long communes and little time for myself.

I hate working out.

I got a leg injury and found a chair workout online. The instructor was so encouraging. I began to work out every day checking my fitness tracker to record my steps and my sleep pattern.

That instructor got me thinking that long sessions in the gym are good, but how about short sessions too. I began to stagger my time and enjoy my quick, effective workout outs that were low impact but so good. As a result, I spend more time moving and making better choices with my time and my food intake.

My advice is to just move, and as my Dad would say, keep moving.

My Health

What details of your life could you pay more attention to?

Sometimes, when life gets busy, I forget to look out for myself. I keep going and going, not pausing for a break. For a long time, I would not notice anything until, wham, I am exhausted to the point I want to crash both physically and mentally.

I am learning to take breaks from time to time. My Mom always said, “Put it up. Tomorrow is another day.”

I am not a slacker, and with Christ in my corner, I will get it done.

Health is wealth.

Never Give Up

What’s the trait you value most about yourself?

I have never been tenacious in my everyday life until after the passing of my Dad. It hit me hard because even though he was getting up in age and slowing down, he always seemed to me as larger than life full of energy. Unstoppable. But he died, and I had to learn to rely on myself and my relationship with the Lord.

Some say it is all me. I say God is my source, and my traits are my resource.

I have five sisters, and there are two who stand out when it comes to encouragement. They never stop. They never give up. They are amazing. When I want to call it quits, they are there for me pushing me forward.

I admired them, and I started thinking like them. Pushing forward, not looking back and never giving up. If I don’t make it, I dust myself off and move on. They taught me this. And I used it in my grief with our Dad. Then late with our Mom.

The problem is that one of the two is going through a rough spell, and it is my turn to comfort and encourage her. Unfortunately, I am a sledgehammer where words are concerned.

Now, I have to learn to be gentle.

Oh…the trials of life.